Unnatural Pain

a poem of how i feel right now due to Jin and what she's doing to herself.

I lay in bed and long to dream
But thoughts enter my mind
I want to scream and run away
From the pain of the thoughts unkind

The thoughts that I’m [dying]
It throbs inside my heart
As the thoughts get stronger, so does the pain
Now the agony begins to start

I start to cry and call her name
To save me from the burning pain
It started in my heart
And now is burning in my tear-like rain

The pain now controls me
I crawl in torture on the floor
I scream and yet no one comes
The loneliness only adds to the hurt more

I cling to his picture
“Save me lord!” I cried
I only wanted to escape
The pain was spreading so wide

The pain had turned to agony
The agony raged on
Until it became a constant torture
But all that was just a pawn

I cry and cry
I scream and scream
No one hears
And no one sees

My soul and heart
Are being killed
Tortured slowly and painfully
Until I will be filled

Filled with torture and with pain
Filled full with bloody regret
The pain is killing me
I am its prisoner, I am its pet

It hurts me till I cannot scream
Until I cannot move
All I can do is cry and cry
And let out my soul to die